Subject: -If I Die-

The beauty of our friendship is that, you and I both know that this is what we both want for each other, and for our families and friends.

*****

"Tan, Jean" to "Rene YAP"
05/06/2003 11:48

-If I Die-
If I die, survive me with such sheer force
that you waken the furies of the pallid and the cold,
from south to south lift your indelible eyes,
from sun to sun dream through your singing mouth.
I don't want your laughter or your steps to waver,
I don't want my heritage of joy to die.
Don't call up my person. I am absent.
Live in my absence as if in a house.
Absence is a house so vast
that inside you will pass through its walls
and hang pictures on the air
Absence is a house so transparent
that I, lifeless, will see you, living,
and if you suffer, my love, I will die again.

Pablo Neruda

I would love if for you to read this for me at my funeral. Love you.

*****

It was raining the whole day, but I kept warm with your words and hot chocolate with marshmallows. :)